Correspondence with Edith Maryon 1912–1924

GA 263 — 18 April 1914

Letter from Edith Maryon

Edith Maryon to Rudolf Steiner

58, Grove Park Terrace
Chiswick, W. London, 18.4.14

Dearest Teacher,

On Easter Sunday I wrote you a letter, but sent it to Miss Wilson in Dornach because I wasn't sure where you were. Perhaps you are now in Berlin, so I am writing a few words, because I may not have much time left. Dr. Felkin says that when I was so ill in Dornach, I was very close to the gates of death and now my heart has become very, very weak, etc. I already knew this more or less in Dornach, and in my letter I asked what I would be allowed to do after May 1, when my work here is done. After meditation and in the morning I feel that there may still be some work for me to do if my physical body can be saved, but that is the thing, I have become so much weaker than I was in Dornach, all my surroundings here are so heavy, I feel like a plant without light and water. So I beg you to send me a word, I need a little more strength to go on, or to go through the gate of death. Without you it is so very hard, but I want to do what is my destiny, if I can find it. Once I had the hope of helping a little later on, but that hope is now fading. Goodbye, my dear teacher. From your pupil

L. Edith C. Maryon

One line is enough for me, when you are so busy.

Dr. Felkin asks me to ask if I may eat meat. I want to [know] if it is necessary.