The History of the Esoteric School 1904–1914, Volume One

GA 264 — Berlin

To Doris and Franz Paulus in Stuttgart

Berlin, August 11, 1904

Dearest Mrs. and Dr. Paulus!

You, dear Doctor, have sent me a beautiful, poetic expression of your mood. It is very precious to me. It is so full of the mystical powers arising in the depths of your being that I can only find it confirmed what I have seen in you from the beginning of our acquaintance: you have great powers, dear lady, and you are capable of much. And in the not too distant future, your inner abundance will reveal itself to you in a surprising way, for the benefit of humanity. You are so kind as to call me “leader” in your letter. I can and may lead only as far as the exalted Master, who guides me, gives me the guidance. I follow him with full consciousness in everything I say to others. And if you recognize that, then please follow me in one thing, rather follow him: in patience. The right mood is patience. I do not say this because I want to express that you, dear woman, would not have this patience, but because we must keep reminding ourselves of this mood of patience.

You say in an earlier letter that you cannot express what moves you. I can only give you the assurance that the ability to express yourself that is entirely appropriate for you will come. But again: patience. The mood of waiting quickens our steps.

You think that when you repeat words in meditation that are actually self-evident, it is futile. But that is not the case. If it depended on knowledge, then it would be futile. But it depends on experiencing again and again through oneself what one should be and what one should make of oneself independently. You can find more about this in the addenda that I promised you for “Voice of Silence” and am enclosing today.

You see, dear madam, inner strength is not gained by hating compulsion. Rather, it is gained by voluntarily, but completely voluntarily, imposing a compulsion on ourselves. Please do not understand such formulaic templates as I gave you in Stuttgart as anything other than advice, and only as advice. But it is advice based on the experience of occultists over many long periods of time.

Therefore, I would like to ask you, dearest Mrs. Doctor, and also you, dear Mr. Doctor, to continue in meditation as you have begun. The formula given should still be short for a long time, but should be repeated briefly every morning. I think you might dwell on this formula for too long. That is not necessary. But consider that the adepts, too, let this formula run through their souls every morning, even if it is at lightning speed, as a constant self-admonition that life must never be concluded, but that every self must give birth to a higher self.

The entire meditation work would therefore continue to exist for both of you:

1. In the evening, before resting, review the day.

2. In the morning:

3. Let the soul go through the formula for the higher self.¹

4. Meditation on “Light on the Path”.² A new sentence from 8 to 8 days. But patiently stay with one for 8 days. (More about this in the attachment).
5. Devotional mood towards that which we revere as the highest, the divine.

Please limit the time as you deem fit, if you still want to do a special meditation described by you. But what I have indicated is effective and fruitful and leads up the path of knowledge. Whether we perceive what we know as self-evident or not, nothing depends on that, but that it goes through our soul.

You can trust your feelings about what you know about me. I also know that you have an active imagination. But an active imagination as such is not necessarily misleading. It can be, but it can also be the bringer of opportunities for the influx of higher experiences. And you see, dear Madam, how your experiences correspond with mine in certain respects. I have written to you about this in advance in my letter from London. I will write you more soon. And as for me, I know that fantasy is as far from me as possible; I also keep myself quite far away from all fantasy with all my strength. Dear Mrs. and Dr., believe me, what I say arises in my experience with the strictness that the mathematician imposes on himself. And in my present life, before I ventured into theosophy, I did everything to ensure that no kind of fantasy could seduce me. For many years my life was trained for this.

You describe young Gräser correctly. To be as he is is certainly not without danger. And people of his kind are symptomatic of the present time. I recommended him to you because I know how you are different from others.

What you write about Deinhard and Bresch is certainly true. But let us be lenient. Both gentlemen cannot be any different than their karma requires.³. Let us stick together, let us throw ourselves into what we see as the right thing and let us overlook the weaknesses of others.

I am very, very pleased that Mrs. Besant is coming to Stuttgart in September.

For the time being, I send my warmest regards to you both,

Dr. Rudolf Steiner
Berlin W, Motzstrasse 17

Franz Paulus replied to this letter from Rudolf Steiner on November 30, 1904:

First and foremost, I would like to inform you of my decision to become a student at the E.S.T. on the basis of the “Rules” you gave us ; therefore, pending further instructions from you, I will start tomorrow to make a daily note of how I feel about observing rules 1, 2, and 3 with satisfaction.⁴