# The History of the Esoteric School 1904–1914, Volume Two

## GA 265 — Hildesheim

### Lessons for Edith Maryon

*On the back of the sheet are the following comments in Edith Maryon's handwriting which obviously refer to the instructions given by Rudolf Steiner for the meditation*:

"First think thinking - only the eyes move while he reads.  
Then the content, the letters connect him with the hierarchies.  
Then say: I A O U E  
Falter = thought.

3½ years, months or weeks or days  
3½ later, occurrence with enthusiasm  
Experience of democracy (with) fellow human beings and the loneliness and tragedy of the aristocracy of thought. Penetrate loneliness to reach the content.

*Note sheet archive number 5853*

If the gods had  
consumed themselves in joy,  
the world would never have come into being;  
they would have only scattered their own essence  
into the world air:  
Sadly they became d'rum  
And in lament  
Embraced their essence,  
And from the lament  
Rose the blessed Fiat  
The world-creating word.

Joy is the fire  
That glows  
When the lament  
Melts into ashes.