# The History of the Esoteric School 1904–1914, Volume Two

## GA 265

### Notes on the Ritual of Admission to the First Degree

*Entry in the notebook archive number 612*

Thinking about it:

I feel  
Abducted from life  
My senses' perception extinguished  
Intellectual activity extinguished  
Nothing around me  
Me in nothingness  
Loneliness  
Silence  
insubstantiality

Lucifer:

You are within yourself  
You are your master in your soul realm  
You can be everything to yourself  
Learn to recognize yourself  
Feel yourself  
A world is yours  
A world full of spirit.  
A world full of value.

J'as: Blow[^1]

The atonement of this feeling:

Outlook into the eternity of solitude.

Forgiveness: Return to the world of misunderstood messengers knowledge - through the incarnations: Scripture. Two columns

Atlantis: Language.

T.

Eagle: consuming the body - day waking  
Owl: penetrating the night - -  


Raven: darkening the culture -

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[^1]: It is unclear what this abbreviation is supposed to mean; it could possibly mean “Jehovah's”.