Enlighten yourself, O man. Ninth scene

(Springs and rocks).

JOHANNES:
So you push me again,
You rocks and springs,
As you did years ago into the abyss.
It was the hardest thing I ever did.
Back then, you called me
To myself.
I was led by pain
And followed your call.
Now it has changed.
Nothing speaks to me
From rocks and springs.
They are silent.
Only my own self speaks:
O man, enlighten yourself.
So you speak, Inner Self.
But the source of light has dried up for you.
With it, the light is taken from me.
The springs are silent,
The air is silent.
And with it, the soul has fled.
Like a human corpse
That no longer holds
The precious soul within,
So I have lost the soul of the world
With you.
And nature is nothing but a corpse to me.
Your rocks were to me
The bones of a living spirit,
Your springs flowed to me
The power of the spirit,
Your air brought me
The breath of the spirit.
But now you are devoid of spirit.
It gave me certainty
That the spirit that spoke from you
Is the truth
And that it is not
Created only in myself.
With its loss
All spirit is gone.
And empty is the world
That I found.
O, may this inner self
Be revealed by the light of spirit.
May it warm this inner self,
The divinity,
I cannot believe in it.
And soulless, like you,
Creation of nature,
So am I myself.
May a spirit demand deeds
Of me,
They will have no power
To arise in me.
For all bearers of power
Are doomed to death.
I was gifted with power
To serve the present,
And I had to hope
That the spirits that
Belong to the future
Will bear the fruits
That I sow in the present
In their own realm.
If these spirits abandon me,
Then it is up to them, not me,
If my work is lost.
I followed Benedictus,
Who guided me in wisdom;
He has guided me faithfully.
But if they take from me
What I have achieved through him,
Then he himself is betrayed.
The beings who are supposed to help him
Abandon him,
And his work must plunge
into the abyss.
I remain faithful to you,
For I owe you
The power of loyalty.
You could not guide me otherwise.
I must follow you.
But since I know that
You must sink,
I will sink first,
So that you can find me,
When your stronger power
Is overcome by other spirits.
I want to rush ahead of you, Benedictus,
Into the death of the world.
O abyss, take me in.
O let me sink —...

THEODOSIUS: Climb.