Spiritual realm. Fifth and sixth scenes
MARY sees consuming, contracting forces that dispel joy—forces that recoil when they encounter human beings—
BENEDICTUS explains to her that these are the transformed forces that come from the priesthood, from which she has acquired too much of the external — he gives her the choice of weaving the solar forces or the lunar forces into her existence in order to progress in the world cycle. ASTRID:
She is and yet she is not.
She expresses the meaning of the worlds
Meaningfully in words,
But the meaning of the words
Has not yet penetrated her own soul.
MARIA speaks of the harmful influence that the solar forces have on her; but she sees coming from Mercury what she needs to weave into her existence. In doing so, she discovers how Lucifer approaches her through Mercury; but she is familiar with the forces; she can unite them with the light of learning and thus hope for a useful human soul. But in doing so, she feels that she needs something she would like to avoid. It turns out
JOHANNES THOMASIUS; he brings the forces from Venus, which he believes Maria must add to the forces of Mercury so that the human being may become whole. THEODORA:
Here the worlds revolve
Around worlds in a meaningful course.
Here the worlds speak
Words of existence to other worlds.
They radiate their essence to each other
And create my being.
MARIA feels unconnected to the forces that come from Thomasius. She does not want to weave them into the world she is working on. LUNA:
He is related to you,
Because what you lack most
Is what he possesses so completely.
And you must want him,
Because his power is still denied to you.
LUCIFER declares that he will add the desire for these forces in such a way that Maria will want to draw Thomasius close to her.
STRADER brings the Saturn being; he is able to read in many things, and through this, everything that the others do comes to life.
He gladly gives what he receives from all sides. —In this way, he develops within himself the urge to be with Thomasius. He experiences many things because he has learned a great deal.
THEODORA: must be nearby to receive; if she does not receive, things disappear. Strader loses his knowledge to her. —
MRS. BALDE donates from her store to the elemental spirits, whose souls she nourishes with her images — these beings contemplate the eternal, but in order to exist, they need the creations of human beings.
THEODORA: absorbs, but with her essence she also enlivens the spirits who will later inspire her.
FELIX BALDE: provides the nature beings with substance —
MARIA gives the creations she has acquired as a priestess to the spirits of the time, who implant them into the world's fabric — by contemplating this, she imprints it on her garment, which she then draws to earth — it becomes her desire —
There is no possibility for Maria and Thomasius to find each other. Due to the relationship in the previous incarnation, the longing has been transformed into an alienation that existed from before — they both feel that they must complement each other — Thomasius' words melt away for Maria — Benedictus hears them, but he cannot convey them to Maria —
MARIA:
How eerily silent is this realm
And darkness everywhere.
The emptiness here chills me
And nothingness oppresses me.
HILARIUS AS THE SPIRIT OF THE ELEMENTS:
What you can see here,
You must first be yourself;
You will find nothing in this place
That you do not first find within yourself.
MARIA:
I am everything here,
That is why I see nothing.
I feel only myself,
Therefore everything is silent to me.
HILARIUS:
So look within yourself,
First perceive
What you lack most,
That will open the eye of your soul.
MARIA:
I lack a being
In whose soul I can fathom
in its soul.
It should speak to me of itself and its nature,
so that in its mirror
my own being may become known to me.
HILARIUS:
The moon's fruitful power
will call this being to you
from the depths of the worlds.
JOHANNES THOMASIUS:
The creative powers of the worlds
strongly into this realm.
I feel the desire of my own being
in another being here before me.
MARIA:
O turn away from here.
My own being glows
when I sense you near me.
The heaviness of the earth grasps my being
when the breath of your being blows here.
If I am to assert myself here,
You must leave this place.
JOHANNES:
I cannot leave you,
For I am called by you,
I see in your own being
Magnetically glimmering forces
That draw me to you.
MARIA:
I know nothing of such forces.
However, I know exactly
How I cannot remain with you.
JOHANNES:
Where in the depths of the world
Are the forces rooted that bring meaning to you,
How I must remain in your sphere.
MARIA:
A star shines in the distance,
It sends me the binding force
That chains beings to beings in the universe.
But it is hostile to me.
It takes me away from myself,
For it only wants to force me
To bring the being itself to me,
Which must disturb me in my vicinity.
LUCIFER enters:
The star you have seen is Mercury.
Its power has sent me to you
to transform your being
so that the other, whom you want to flee,
will bring you to your life's path.
For know that I love this one
and I want to pour my love
Pour into your being,
So that you may love him,
Because he must love you.
BENEDICTUS' SPIRIT:
You can save yourself from him,
If you turn your gaze forward.
The brightest star in this realm,
It will carry you away from him.
HILARIUS:
He points you to that star
Which is called the sun in the human realm.
MARIA:
To forget the sun and its deeds
Was my first aspiration
When I was allowed to take my first steps
In this spirit realm
And whatever may blossom for me
I will always turn my gaze away
From being the sun.
LUCIFER:
What you hate about being the sun,
Through me you shall truly find.
I give you all the power of the sun
That you need if you want to avoid the sun.
MARIA:
I feel how
The power of love shines into me from him.
I must have it if I am to go further.
So close to me, you soul being,
That I did not want to love.
BENEDICTUS:
As you are in this realm,
The power of love is denied to you.
You may desire it, but you may not practice it.
MARIA:
Then I will change my form
So that, loving, it may draw this being
Towards itself.
BENEDICTUS' SPIRIT:
You will have to draw other beings
Close to you with him.
Already, inspired by Luna's power,
A spirit approaches you, which joins you.
MARIA:
But this one wants to separate me from the first.
He has a completely different nature than I do.
THEODORA:
The sun's life force shines
In those distant places, warming this world,
But it robs me of my being.
So I will dampen my essence,
That its light cannot reach me.
ASTRID:
She must work on human beings
In this spiritual world, where spirits
Unite the forces of the worlds
So that human becoming lives in the underworld.
Her work must be to work
On everything that is foreign to the forces of the sun.
MARIA:
So she is related to me.
And I want to banish her
To my vicinity.
PHILIA:
She is foreign to you
And you can only find her
When the peculiarity of her nature
Will press itself into your desires.
MARIA:
I do not want to find her that way,
I would rather flee from her.
LUCIFER:
She is certainly repugnant to you here,
But once you find me
In your own soul,
You will bring her to yourself.
THE OTHER PHILIA:
I can already see how Lucifer is creating
Desire in your depths,
Which will one day bring you the power
To bring this soul being to yourself.
JOHN:
So I too will find her,
For she proves to me
That she is part of my own being.
STRADER:
Where can I solve the riddles
That so urgently press upon me here?
Harmony sounds from all sides.
But questions only sound like questions!
I must find the answer.
LUNA:
You are in all these questions,
And yet you find no solution,
If you want to remain in this form.
STRADER:
But this form seems to me
To be the only bliss that is meant for me.
LUNA:
The soul wants to hold you,
But the spirit urges you
Towards that realm where you
Can see in material densities
What you are allowed to live here in spiritual expanses.
STRADER:
I would then have to penetrate
With beings that I have eradicated from myself
When I found entry into this realm.
AHRIMAN:
You will gladly do so when you are satiated
With the fruits of this realm.
I await the moment
When you will direct your desires
Towards a denser existence.
LUNA:
He will hide the desire within himself
Until the other souls
Connected to him
Must find themselves ready for a new earthly existence.
MRS. BALDE:
I rush here from star to star
And feel in all places
How life forces fill me
And invisibly create themselves within me,
But I am compelled to see
What this worldly being wants within me.
MRS. BALDE:
Oh, how it becomes within me,
What flows richly from your being.
It radiates into my life forces.
I see image after image,
Where before I could only feel the invisible.
CAPESIUS:
But I destroy myself so much,
As I must give of myself to you.
I feel how I must slowly disappear.
CAPESIUS:
But in this way the world spirit takes from me
The essence that I may call my own.
How shall I hold on to what I must remain?
PHILIA:
You will transform into another being.
And what you are compelled to give here,
You will regain
With powers of a different kind.
LUCIFER:
Jupiter's essence is the work of grace.
He is the star from which you now
draw nourishment for your soul.
I will be in you
when a new earthly body envelops you,
and you will feel grace
when your soul is allowed to receive
what the penitent forms from your essence.
MARIA:
They all look into the sun,
Before which I must keep my being dull,
If the power of the ray creation
Is not to banish me from existence.
PHILIA:
Here they fill themselves with sun,
Which flows out of their being
In the earthly realm.
If you wanted to find the same here,
They would remain distant from you in the lower realm
And there you must give them sun.
AHRIMAN:
He strives mightily
Through me to immerse himself
In that deity to which he is originally related.
He still has enough in common with the other two
That I must not lose him for my purposes.
The abilities: From the spiritual outside world; there they are the insights and perceptions of ancient times translated into living words — transformed by the spirits of the higher hierarchies. To live into them —
MARIA:
I feel strongly stirred in my world,
A serious, meaningful sound trembles
In the strongest image-forming powers of my being
And it will probably take a long time
Until I fathom what is created in me
This weaving of world words, which clearly
But meaningfully reveals itself to me.
ASTRID:
In the life of the world spirit,
thoughts that you once acquired resound.
They once enlivened your brain in Nilland,
and they want to form themselves into soul powers,
through which you may form spiritual knowledge in the new earthly existence
in the manner of human beings.
MARIA:
Other beings have so often spoken this
into my sphere of being
that I was allowed to acquire
a high spiritual knowledge in the Land of the Nile,
which is solemnly revealed to humans in temples.
But this knowledge is hidden from me here
and a lack of all knowledge seems to be my lot.
LUNA:
In this place you may not recognize
What was so clear to you in the earthly realm.
Thoughts that were your own
Had to detach themselves from your mortal earthly being,
To transform themselves here into world spirit substance.
You live as a spirit-like being of your own,
What you once acquired through thinking.
PHILIA:
So weave for yourself the substance of the spirit worlds,
Which now wants to produce itself as the fruit
Of the thoughts you once let wander
Into realms you were allowed to sense.
What you create from your own thoughts
Through constant diligence in the realm of spiritual creation,
You will feel as powers of the heart and mind
On earth once as a human being.
MARIA:
I feel how, in this work,
a strange being constantly disturbs me
when I want to experience the work within myself.
THEODORA:
It is I who must always come close to you
when you spin the essence of your own becoming.
I feel what you can create in yourself
pouring into me in a most delightful way.
THE ELEMENTAL SPIRITS OF THE AIR AND WATER REALM:
She only takes here, but gives nothing;
she leads a completely useless soul life.
THE ELEMENTAL SPIRITS OF THE EARTH REALM:
She harbors in the depths of her being
What others can do, but cannot live.
Were she not here, the others would be shadows
And mere specters in their spiritual being.
MARIA:
I feel I need your closeness,
You are my guardian angel here.
What I achieve would vanish into the vastness,
Incomprehensibly futile, if it did not
Live on, breathed into existence in her soul.
What flows from me must find in her
A vanishing other spiritual life,
So that it may become conscious of my being.
So be my spiritual friend angel, you,
Who first gives me to myself in unity.
But who will grant me, for my earthly existence,
Consciousness of myself, if I here
In the realm of spirit always need you,
To tell me what I grant myself?
THEODORA:
Your nature gives me a fervent desire.
It will feel drawn to you,
When you leave the place of your spiritual activity
Longing for the earthly realm.
LUCIFER:
But then you will serve her in a different way,
Her earthly body must be able to actively create
Consciousness forces through its own powers.
As she appears here, I am unable
To effectively transform the forces that want to unite you
Into free self-will.
But once you find yourselves in the earthly realm,
I will bind the souls to themselves.
MARIA:
As often as I feel you in this spiritual place
Living and active in my being,
Burning suffering shivers through my soul.
What I otherwise perceive in my sphere
Calls my powers to spiritual creation;
But what comes to me from you, I must erase,
If I am to become a human being whose mind
Is predestined for me here from the words of the stars.
LUCIFER:
But feel that I am also of value to you here,
What you now acquire in words of goodness and beauty
As the essence of your being,
You see only through the being of other spirits.
When I penetrate you with my powers,
You know yourself as your own soul-self.
MARIA:
That is what embitters my existence here,
That I know human existence for a long time
To be bound to your way of working.
But right now, I am particularly confused
by what you call to me from my soul.
MARIA:
The place where the strict guardian has led us
becomes a spiritual island for us.
GUARDIAN:
Await your world midnight!
MARIA:
World midnight in soul awakening?
A sun word speaks:
The human souls,
Who live world midnight in awakening,
They see those flashes that, in their twitching,
Blindingly illuminate necessities,
So that spiritual insights die in recognition —
And, dying, form themselves into signs of destiny,
Which eternally exert their power in the souls;
Such souls hear words of thunder,
Which come from the foundation of the world to their delusion
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BENEDICTUS:
The soul to which we have long been connected approaches;
Lucifer brings it into our circle.
It radiates reproach, — rays like fire,
Which souls ignite in icy fields.
MARIA:
It acts like arrows of frost — terrifying,
It approaches — I feel its icy proximity —
And now — it presses me together within myself.
This is how love works — which wants to heal — —
Saturn's illumination flows from her to me —
It bounces back from her as cold light.
LUCIFER:
The lament that came to me so coldly
From this soul — I carry it
To you — it must work in your souls.
You may only set foot on Earth again
If this soul's essence in yours
Correctly reflects the error committed.
You created this error, it shines,
Since your souls gave it life
In the light of the spirit through the spheres of the world.
I have captured it for myself, seek it
In future not among other world spirits —
If you want to seek it — turn to me.
You also seek this soul — seek me.
You can find it with me — only with me.
And now, soul, use the powers of light,
Which radiate from gentle, aged Saturn.
Raise your lament of fate here,
Where it shall be heard by spiritual ears.
JOHN'S SOUL:
(Angelic figure, pink, footless with blue-red wings).—
I sought you with spirits of another kind,
But they always had to end their guidance,
Before I saw you in the vast weaving.
For I could hardly feel you near me,
The darkness shone upon me.
Alone with Lucifer's power,
My soul's light broke through the shell of your being.
I stand before you — the long-cherished complaint
Audible to your spiritual hearing.
I accuse you — because the power of your error
You want to turn to the detriment of my being.
I rush through the worlds,
Heavily burdened by the consequences of error,
Which you do not want to atone for within yourselves,
Which you allow to overflow into souls
That fate has assigned to you.
“But what I can give to your soul,
Shall always be granted to you in love.”
These words, the soul often spoke on earth,
Which here is closely connected to the other.
It showed Lucifer in the light of the world
The echo of the word, and I saw:
It was not the truth of the soul, only delusion,
Which gave itself to you in the sleep of the soul,
Poured out from your being into mine.
I must lose myself in you, now give
Me back to myself in spiritual worlds,
Before I must seek you on earth.
MARIA'S SOUL:
Your being is closely connected to me through the guidance of fate
For long times of travail.
The will follows, even if it knows itself to be free,
Necessities that kill it,
If it defiantly resists them.
I would have to keep you in my sphere,
Even if I myself could wish otherwise.
LUCIFER:
He wants to fight for his soul's vigilance
In the midnight of your soul.
MARIA'S SOUL:
What do your words mean—they ignite into sparks
The sparks shine into the human soul,
Which you brought here at the hour of destiny.
I have often directed my gaze into them.
I saw wonders of the world, how they weave spirits
Into human souls - divine creation
I looked into the mirror of the human soul;
It stands before me - the mirror of soul magic - -
Why do I owe Lucifer his approach?
Yet I feel the spirit of the guide with me.
He shows the soul's path of eternity;
He always followed me into earthly life,
When Lucifer's power wanted to harm me.
I was often allowed to turn to him in supplication,
When the fervor of my prayer lifted me
From the worlds of the senses to the heights of the spirit.
He spoke to me, enlightening my mind
And strengthening my power in earthly shells,
He protects me safely in spiritual spheres.
I am with him - I now dare to look
Despite Lucifer into this mirror of the soul.
The sparks grow—they are already lightning bolts.
From the fire of wrath, Lucifer now draws
The lightning flames—they shine through me.
My gaze dies as I look—it presses
Dying into my spiritual shell.
What will become of my dead gaze within me...?
A circle of mystics — at the place of consecration — —
With fearful glances they turn
From a man in their midst — —
From me — in ancient times —; it stands —
Before me — my spiritual guide — seizes him
The sacrificial fire — which he kindles for me.
It becomes in him a fire of spiritual wrath —
Abandoned by the others, he stands there —
In the blaze of error at the place of consecration. —
LUCIFER:
Seize the creative power of this knowledge.
I will forge it into a spiritual sword for you.
With it, you will defeat every enemy of the spirit.
It will make you rulers of the spiritual spheres.
The soul that approached you lamenting,
you will conquer with my sun sword.
THE SPIRIT OF JOHN'S YOUTH:
The soul that approached you lamenting,
It leaves me behind in spiritual spheres.
As a shadow, I will faithfully wait for her,
Until she awakens from her soul's sleep,
And her light may mature in the light of the world.