# The Essence of Christianity

## GA 68a — 19 December 1907, Cologne

### 37. The Dangers of Initiation

The sources of what we call spiritual science, which we visited yesterday, are, on the one hand, criticized by our contemporaries as fantastic and dreamy, if not even more severely, and on the other hand, they are criticized in a very specific way, which we shall deal with today. It consists in the fact that when the subject of initiation is broached, certain dangers are also mentioned that are said to be associated with what is called spiritual science. However, those who speak of these dangers usually have very dark, hazy ideas about what they are supposed to think about these dangers. This cannot be otherwise, because most of them do not have much concept of the content, the task and mission of spiritual science in our time. If we want to shed light on these dangers, we must first distinguish between the fear that our contemporaries have of the general proclamation of spiritual science; this must be distinguished from the dangers of spiritual science that really do exist in some cases, which arise for the one who wants to go to the higher worlds himself, who seeks access to knowledge in the invisible, supersensible.

Then there is talk of how it is dangerous to talk about such things at all, to spread such teachings and to twist people's minds. One reproach, which is made over and over again by a completely misleading view that remains on the surface, is made against Theosophy; it consists of the fact that by dealing with Theosophy, man is alienated from life. It is said that he is led into a world-unrelated, world-distant life, that he is deprived of interest and sympathy for true life. Many a family that sees one of its members turn to Theosophy because they believe they will find the satisfaction there that their previous life could not give their heart and soul says: Theosophy has taken that person from us. — It is dangerous when such people are driven into an ascetic, unworldly way of life, because then their relatives say it is Theosophy that has driven them into it. But there is a good deal of intolerance behind such an assertion. Such people believe that only the way they want to live is justified, and that it is asceticism not to live exactly the same way as they do; anyone who does not exactly share their idea and outlook on life practices asceticism. But when you look at the lives of some people, at what a man and woman do from morning till night – we are not talking here about those who are really involved in practical life – when you see how the lives of some people are exhausted in soupers and dinners and other trivial pleasures, then you understand that a person who seeks higher things cannot live this life. If someone withdraws from this life, people say that he has fallen into unworldly asceticism and that he is preoccupied with all kinds of abstract, confused ideas. They cannot imagine that for someone living their life must be the greatest asceticism. A person who has come to know the sources from which the life of reality flows that surrounds us would have to mortify himself greatly if he had to participate in what is called life in such circles. It would be a real asceticism for him. Not because he has become alienated from life, but because he knows life in its real form, so he does not mortify himself by participating in it.

However, people in such circles will think that a person who occupies himself with such complicated ideas is somehow deprived. They are not thinking correctly, because he is not denying himself anything. As long as a person finds pleasure and enjoyment in such trivial everyday things, such a way of life is not for him. It is not a matter of changing his life, but his feelings and perceptions must have changed. He must know that true life only flows where the higher reasons for existence are to be found.

Then some families see one of their members rush to the ways of life of Theosophy. They say: Theosophy has snatched this person from us. Is that so? Those who know how to examine the souls of people will find that this is not the case. The very member who turns to Theosophy was initially repelled by what was going on around him. Then it somehow became aware of Theosophy and found there exactly what it lacked in its circles. Is it now right to say that Theosophy has driven it out of its circles? Theosophy has given it what its circles could not give it. Longing souls, searching for a true purpose in life and not finding it where life has led them, they seek it where they can find it. While such souls have been driven away, one now thinks they have been taken! Theosophy does not agitate; there would be no Theosophical movement if there were not people who have been driven out of today's life and now go to what is offered to them from the other side.

However, a certain danger arises when such people come to Theosophy immaturely and are then literally blinded, literally crushed by what they encounter there. One must not forget that the basis of Theosophy is a coherent and strict thinking, a firmly structured logic that searches step by step for the structure of the world building. There is not much real logic in our lives, no matter how much we boast about how wonderfully far we have come! Even where man seeks advice in popular and other sciences about the questions of existence, one finds only a short-meshed logic. Anyone who is accustomed to rigorous thinking and examines the results of science, when he is forced to follow the lines of thought as science is usually disseminated today, will often feel physical pain from the brutal, rough conclusions. Because as admirable as what science has discovered through its instruments and methods is, the content of thought is usually an incredibly short.

Thus it happens that the man who stands in everyday life is as a rule little practiced, little prepared for real logical thinking. The importance of the collision of people with Theosophy is usually underestimated when the soul is accustomed to having the dull trains of thought that people have today, and then there is the collision with the penetrating sequences of thoughts that confront people in spiritual science. A person with a sensitive soul, when feeling rules in his heart, notices that true nourishment flows towards him, that a wonderful light shines towards him. When he realizes his inability to grasp it with his trains of thought, it has a devastating, debilitating effect on his soul. This affects the nervous system; especially when he can only rush into theosophy in festive moments, can only take a piece and then has to go back to life. There he feels the unhealthy contrast; there arise those dissatisfied, sick souls, which we see emerging today in many cases from contact with the spiritual teachings.

But we see even more. Those who understand the signs of the times see a bleak picture of the future. Humanity today lives in darkness and chaos in many ways; they judge life without knowledge of the driving forces of life, which have arisen solely as a result of human attitudes. Those who believe that attitudes have no effect on life do not know what real facts of thought are. They have an effect on life right down to the health of a nation. Anyone who is aware that materialism has held sway in the innermost depths of humanity for so long, at a time when great contemporary issues were being worked out, knows that it has produced something that is often wrongly judged. One admires many a writer who gives a dazzling account of many a discussion on the most varied areas of life; and one does not know that he speaks or writes empty phrases. The knowledgeable person could show in many cases what is behind this cleverness. Sometimes there is really something behind it that could be called idiocy. Today you can be idiotic and still be a clever writer. Decades ago, someone said that it is no longer considered special for someone to write long, beautiful poems, because today our language is so advanced that it thinks for people. The general level of education today is such that someone who has perhaps studied it since the age of sixteen and absorbed all the judgments that are bandied about can write wittily and yet be weak-minded. This is a seemingly paradoxical assertion, but factually it is true. This should be seen only as a symptom of how superficially life is lived today; how little there is in-depth power of judgment; how little they are able to grasp the forces that stand behind life. These are the leading spirits! And what about those who are the led? If we judge the state of mind of those who often experience this confrontation with what Theosophy gives, we have to say: if they had remained within their previous lives, they might have remained reasonably intelligent people; but now they come to Theosophy, and it is as if a mighty light shines into a room where there is much impurity.

This was not seen as long as it was dark. But now, when the knowledge of the true sources of life shines into the darkness, the contrast of the one with the other may cause someone who would otherwise have remained a sober, reasonably reasonable person to be unable to bear the light of knowledge and now go completely mad. There is a danger here! But can one say that Theosophy is to blame? Is it not rather the materialistic school of thought that has brought man to this state? And should not spiritual science bring this light to mankind because of these dangers? Even if one or the other may suffer harm, it must not be denied, because humanity must receive it for true progress and salvation.

However, there are also real dangers for those who seek access to the higher worlds. Unfortunately, we can only read too much about this in some theosophical writings, and they have been written far too blackly there. We do not want to gloss over anything, but we want to watch calmly and objectively to see what the situation is regarding these dangers.

There is a particular difficulty at the threshold, because there are difficult deceptions, hallucinations, to be distinguished from what is reality and truth: that which is most difficult for a person to overcome certain prejudices and premonitions that he brings with him from ordinary life. When people hear that there is a way to penetrate into higher worlds, they are often seized by an enormous greed and passion; but to strictly follow what was emphasized in yesterday's lecture, to strictly train thinking, feeling and willing, that does not seem necessary to them. But it must be said to those that today, just as a thousand years ago, this is an indispensable condition and must be strictly adhered to by all teachers of the mystery schools. Those who did not engage in thinking free of sensuality were not allowed to join the secret training. This cannot be followed so strictly today, because those who were the guardians of knowledge in the past gave humanity no opportunity at all to come to this knowledge without fulfilling this condition. Today, however, it is different. Through a thousand and one channels, knowledge flows to humanity. But it is amazing how even great minds in the field of science are completely unaware of this ancient knowledge of humanity!

What man cannot learn through science is the solution to the world's riddles. It is often only through science that questions arise for man. Questions are raised that have existed for man since time immemorial; and man would be consumed with longing for answers if theosophy did not provide the answers. A true leader of truth cannot, for example, put Haeckel's “Welträtsel” (World Mysteries) out of his hand without the feeling: here not only are no mysteries solved, but new ones are presented. Questions are raised that did not even exist for prehistoric man. People would have to burn with longing if Theosophy could not give them answers to all their questions. Today's science is more a questioner than an answerer.

Theosophy was not founded on some arbitrary basis, but out of the deepest knowledge of the needs of humanity, which will need more and more what only Theosophy gives. Humanity cannot do without it.

Many people believe, however, that they can be satisfied with the materialistic views of our environment. They say: I find explanations for everything in them, I do not need anything from spiritual worlds. But there is something in man that can never say so in the long run. The wish, the innermost longing of the soul will always say no and no again to such an intellectual knowledge of the world around us. This longing of the soul cannot be appeased; it grows; it makes the person weak, ill, unable to work in life. There are many derailed souls today who are searching for something but repel what they are seeking. If what the soul longs for is not met with what spiritual science can give, then doubt, hopelessness, even despair takes hold of the soul.

Thus, out of the necessity of the time, Theosophy had to be proclaimed to our world. Then you often see that people are seized by greed, but they shy away from the hard work that the preparation requires; they are too lazy. They say: We want to uplift our souls, we want to flow into bliss! But you only give again in terms of ideas, in concepts! We do not want the mind, we want the soul! If only people would realize how they are making themselves their own worst enemies through the things they foster within themselves! It is precisely the calm, step-by-step realization that can satisfy their soul's longings; it is only satisfied when it quietly surrenders to these insights. There are therefore many souls in the world that could be called derailed souls, but which really stand in opposition to themselves as their own enemies.

And there are souls who carry within them the desire for higher knowledge, as described above, but who do not want to break out of their customary logic. They cannot enter the higher worlds. An increasing number of souls are afflicted. They rave about all kinds of spiritual concepts. The basis of this illness is attributed to Theosophy, while in reality it is the materialistic attitude that makes the souls ill. It is only the final clash with Theosophy that conjures up the illness. One does intend to penetrate more seriously into the higher regions of existence, but very soon slackens, especially when a serious test approaches. This test consists in the fact that one must see the dangers that surround life from all sides at the threshold, and which the human being had not seen before. If someone has his home near a powder factory, he may have lived there contentedly and quietly for years, but then hears about the powder factory and fears for his life every hour. He does not realize that seeing a danger is no reason to fear. Something external has not changed, only his knowledge about it has changed. It is the same when a person approaches the supersensible worlds. In this world are the sources of bliss and sublimity that cannot be compared with anything that people can experience in the sensual world. But there are equally powerful enemies of human nature there, horrible things; everything that lives in the sensual world that is dreadful cannot be compared with the dangers that surround people in these worlds. If he takes a look inside, then he experiences worlds of bliss – but at the same time he must experience the dreadful, the terrible, and he must experience it with cold blood.

The actual facts have not changed, only his feelings and perceptions; the facts were already there before he could recognize them, only his perception of the facts has changed. A person must remain fearless and calm. As simple as it seems, it is difficult to carry out. But if it is not carried out, feelings of fear and terror of the spiritual worlds arise in a person. This is not a matter of indifference, because these are real forces. There are beings in the spiritual world for whom the feelings of fear that we radiate are welcome nourishment. They suffer from emaciation if they do not receive this nourishment. They surround the person like vampires; when you give them nourishment in the form of feelings of fear and anxiety, they fill themselves up with it. The human being must be firm; he must have thoroughly overcome all feelings of fear if he wants to enter. He must also discard other feelings that he takes with him from the sensual world long before, because they become disadvantages, terrible obstacles in these worlds. These are all negative feelings: ambition, vanity, anger, hatred, annoyance, selfishness. Those feelings that mean little in ordinary life become real monsters in terms of their dangerous side. The person who enters these higher worlds and has not yet discarded these feelings provides welcome nourishment for these beings. He does not need to see them, but they destroy his physical health; they ruin his nervous system, his sleep. All this is true!

Even worse dangers arise. When a person is to be initiated through the methods the teacher gives him, when he has undergone his exercises and then sees what is approaching him, sees the dangers – and then gives up the attempt, then what is called in spiritual science occurs: the reflection of the human spiritual work. At the moment when man gives up the attempt, grotesque figures of a dreadful, quite impossible kind appear to him in visions. Man is as if enclosed by these figures. It forms itself around him like a clamp, made of such figures of horror.

All this could deter a person from seeking the path; but it must not deter anyone. That would be selfish. Anyone who has the opportunity to penetrate into the higher worlds must not miss these opportunities. It is easy to say: I am afraid of it. But man must be aware that by doing so he harms not only himself but the whole world. He has no right to let these abilities lie fallow. Just as the finger is not an independent part of the human organism, we are not independent either. And just as the finger cannot live only for itself, we cannot live only for ourselves. The whole world is one organism. We should work on ourselves and develop our powers. If we do not do this, we neglect a sacred duty towards humanity. Each one of us must realize that obstacles must be overcome. They must be overcome! If a person follows the instructions he receives energetically and correctly, then it is impossible for anyone to be in danger. There is no place for scaremongering when it comes to conscientious guidance. You have to know the dangers, but you must not be afraid of them. That must be a firm principle.

Of course, certain dangers also come from another direction. For example, anyone who carries social prejudices into the higher worlds — they are of no use there — and cannot discard them, will not be able to ascend without danger. Therefore, man must acquire a high degree of inner freedom and independence. Those who cannot do so can only advance to a small degree. It is not a matter of external independence here; a person can be as dependent as he likes externally, but internally the soul can be completely free. We must beware of the numerous misunderstandings that we encounter. Anyone who really wants to walk the path of truth should realize that a sentence can contain worthless words and that the same sentence can carry profound truth. Those who seriously want to follow the path must beware of empty phrases and mere set expressions, for although the highest light prevails in Theosophy, so too does the most extreme phrase-mongering and hollowness. This is a bad habit of our time, but it contains a real danger for Theosophy.

If we go back to the earliest times, we see that the leading personalities who have guided life have attached great importance to a person's judgment at a certain age; today, the very youngest can give their authoritative judgments. Above all, people today do not know that although one can achieve a great deal in terms of intellect, science and art at an early age, only someone who has reached the middle of their life is able to convey the experiences of the spiritual worlds to his fellow human beings in a truly correct way. That is why no secret school sends out anyone who has not passed the age of 35. As long as man still needs certain powers to build up his organism, he does not have them freely to put them into service. It is not permitted to communicate the occult teachings authoritatively to anyone before the powers are no longer needed for building up; only when the physical is in the process of declining in life is it permitted. Anyone who examines life will see the justification for this rule. Even a spirit such as Goethe: What he achieved before this point was a revival of what he had gathered from here and there; what would not have been there if Goethe had not been there, that only came about after the middle of his life. It means the greatest danger when we see how great truths are spoken of as mere phrases. For example, you can hear over and over again: You must be unselfish, you must sacrifice your personality to the All! — This is a profound truth if it is really understood; but it can be the most absurd phrase if this truth is presented without understanding. Egoism is not given to man by a wise world government for nothing; it is a means of education, it makes man richer and fuller; through it many a person is prevented from doing something that could harm him. It is a healthy force, it fills the personality with strength and energy, it is something wholesome! To say that one should discard it is a morbid phrase. Nevertheless, it is true that a sacrifice of the personality is necessary if we want to find the way up into the higher worlds.

How should this be understood? Let us take an example. Someone is asked to sacrifice all their cash. One person sacrifices fifty pfennigs, another twenty thousand marks. But both sacrifice everything they have. If these sacrifices are to help, then it is clear that twenty thousand marks will help much more than fifty pfennigs. So one must compare the sacrifice of a personality who has nothing within him, who perhaps has no particular ego at all, with the sacrifice of a personality who has accumulated within himself enormous energy and strength. What good does it do humanity to sacrifice a human being who is still nothing? The personality must first make itself strong and energetic; it depends on how it is sacrificed, not what is sacrificed. Man must know that egoism is a healthy force; it drives man to obey the sentence:

> When the rose adorns itself,  
> It also adorns the garden!

A personality who first learned to develop the forces within himself and then sacrificed himself is a valuable sacrifice in the great course of life. But if a personality without strength and energy takes this word: You shall sacrifice yourself, as a word of life, it becomes a phrase here and, because it is empty, will produce a life without content. In this sphere there is a vampire of life; it sucks out the forces of life. It is necessary to see clearly in this sphere. In no wise must there enter into this work that sense of well-being which a man so easily experiences when uttering fine phrases. Here the man who really wants to ascend into the higher worlds needs care and patience, for only little by little can he learn to distinguish aright.

Another thing must be considered by those who develop the forces slumbering within them into higher abilities that lead them up into the higher worlds. All human beings have them; they are within each person as a germ, only most people develop them over long periods of time. If the development of these forces is accelerated, then everything else in human life is accelerated as well. Let us assume that a 20-year-old person would reach the point that he would otherwise have reached at the age of 80 in just five years. All the things written in his karma are compressed into one twelfth. Everything he will experience in the way of adversity and obstacles in life will occur in five years. This acceleration of life acts like a locomotive that rushes through a snowy area at breakneck speed compared to a slow one. The latter pushes the snow aside slowly, while the former will quickly stir it up. That is really how it is in life. That which would otherwise be experienced over a longer period of time now comes together, and so it becomes apparent to the person who begins to walk the path of knowledge that he must experience many things that seem strange to him, especially at the beginning. Bad habits, vices, passions suddenly arise; everything that lies at the bottom of the soul must come out. At every opportunity, the person will find passions and desires that he believes he has long since overcome. But they must appear in order to be completely overcome, to disappear completely. For the one who truly comes to the threshold, there stands a mighty one that shows in a great image everything that is still base in the depths of his soul. All passions stand in one image before the soul. This is the Guardian of the Threshold. He meets the Pathfinder, and he must face him without fear. If he is not fearless, he turns back, then those hideous images arise that imprison man. All his lower passions imprison him in the mirror image of the spiritual as in a chamber. This is not described to deter anyone from seeking the path, but only to enable the seeker to find the path in the right way.

No one should let this deter them. One must know that the very sight of these dangers is the greatest purifying agent. People usually have no idea how wisely they are guided. It is a powerful healing agent for the soul when it has to experience fear and hope, tension and release, agitation and reassurance. These feelings are extremely important, even in all art. These are important medicines for the soul. It heals from the dangers it has to go through, and we should be grateful to these teachers; after all, we cannot escape them. There are no dangers other than those that are also there for man. Only in relation to knowledge does it change for him. He learns about the facts, but the facts themselves do not change. When we learn this, we can set out on the path to the higher worlds without worry, without danger. If a person does this, then he is following an important mission. Our time needs spiritual knowledge. If it were denied to humanity, then general materialism would fill the hearts of men with doubt, despair, and a lack of comfort and hope. It would make people gloomy and despairing; it would affect their temperament, make life dull and stunted, and ultimately also make the physical part of the human being fall ill. Materialism would completely enervate people. For physical recovery, people need what spiritual science offers.

Only he can be a truly useful member in the progress of the human race who allows himself to be seized by the spiritual current. And it is justified for a person to sometimes worry about his own development; he must first acquire the true powers for himself, with which he will be able to help people, and he must have patience to acquire them. This must be emphasized in Theosophy. What matters is not a theory, but that it flows into life; it has in itself a healthy, energetic life, and it must be a remedy for humanity!

Reasons can be given for and against all things; the true secret scientist is not interested in this, he knows. Theosophy is given to humanity as a remedy. No matter how much it is attacked, it is destined to make man whole in body and soul when it is introduced into life. And it is in this recovery of life that it will express its affirmation. Therefore, when a person works on himself, he does not work for himself; he works for the whole of human progress, for the true and right salvation of humanity. And that this is achieved, that this is experienced, will then be the only sure proof of spiritual or secret knowledge.