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Then comes something of which it may be said, “Yes, you are absolutely alone in infinity, but in you there arises something like pure memories that yet are no memories.” I say, “Like memories that are no memories” because all our memories in ordinary life are such that we can recall anything with which we once came into contact, anything we once experienced. But imagine that you stand there with all that is innermost in your soul, while images keep rising up within you that need to be related to something. But you have never previously experienced them! You know that these images are related to beings, but you have never met these beings. 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Ich habe Ihnen geschildert, was man erlebt, wenn man in den elementarischen oder ätherischen Leib hineinkommt: man erweitert sich, man fließt aus. Das ist das konkrete Gefühl. Aber das ist auch das hauptsächlichste allgemeine Gefühl, das man hat: daß man aus dem physischen Leib herausdringt, immer weiter und weiter wird und sich hinausergießt in die Weiten der Welt. Das Sich-Hineinleben in den astralischen Leib und bewußt in dem leben, was Stück für Stück den elementarischen Leib erweckt, das ist noch mit etwas anderem verknüpft: mit einem Springen aus sich heraus, und etwas Ergreifen, was schon draußen war; nicht ein Erweitern dessen, was schon ist. Wenn man im elementarischen Leibe ist, weißß man: Der physische Leib gehört noch dazu. 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Wenn man da hinüberkommt, wenn man diesen Sprung getan hat und weiß: dies bist du nun, das schaust du an wie früher eine Pflanze oder einen Stein -, dann hat man zunächst ein Gefühl, von dem man sagen kann, es wird wohl keinem zu Initiierenden auf den ersten Stufen erspart bleiben; es ist die Empfindung: Nun bist du in der übersinnlichen Welt, da breitet sie sich aus, ins Unendliche hin. Man kann nicht einmal sagen «nach allen Seiten», denn sie hat viel mehr Seiten und auch ganz andere Dimensionen als die gewöhnliche Welt. Aber man ist allein drinnen. Man ist mit seinem Leben im astralischen Leibe drinnen - und überall die Welt, unendliche Ausbreitung, nirgends ein Wesen, man selbst allein! Und es überkommt einen, was man nennen kann: das seelisch höchst gesteigerte Einsamkeitsgefühl.","text_trust":"verbatim","quote_safe":true,"word_count":152,"url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/de/ga/138/1912-08-28/p019"},{"locus":"GA 138/1912-08-28/p020","passage_number":20,"text":"Es kommt darauf an, daß man solche Gefühle erträgt, daß man sie durchmachen kann, denn in dem Überwinden dieser Gefühle ergeben sich die Kräfte, die einen weiterführen, die zu Seherkräften werden. Und höchst real wird das, was ich in dem Drama «Der Hüter der Schwelle» in wenige Zeilen hineinzubringen versuchte, wo Maria den Johannes in die unendlichen Eisgefilde führt, wo die Menschenseele einsam, ganz einsam ist. Und ist man in dieser Einsamkeit drinnen, dann muß man warten, geduldig warten. Daß man warten kann, daß man sich soviel moralische Kraft angeeignet hat, um zu warten, davon hängt viel ab. Denn dann kommt etwas, was man sich so sagen kann: Ja, jetzt bist du innerhalb von Unendlichkeiten ganz allein, aber in dir steigt etwas auf wie lauter Erinnerungen, die doch wieder keine Erinnerungen sind. Ich sage, «wie lauter Erinnerungen, die doch wieder keine Erinnerungen sind», weil alle Erinnerungen des gewöhnlichen Lebens so sind, daß man sich erinnert an das, dem man einmal gegenübergestanden hat, was man einmal erlebt hat. Aber denken Sie sich, Sie ständen da mit dem Innern Ihrer Seele, und es tauchten Vorstellungen auf, die verlangen, daß Sie sie auf etwas beziehen. Aber Sie haben sie nie erlebt. Sie wissen, diese Vorstellungen beziehen sich auf Wesenheiten, aber Sie standen den Wesenheiten nie gegenüber. Dieses innere Heraufsteigen einer Welt, die einem unbekannt ist, von der man aber weiß: du trägst sie in dir, es sind lauter Abbildungen, das ist das nächste, was zu den Erlebnissen auf dem Wege zur Initiation gehört.","text_trust":"verbatim","quote_safe":true,"word_count":250,"url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/de/ga/138/1912-08-28/p020"},{"locus":"GA 138/1912-08-28/p021","passage_number":21,"text":"Und dann macht man eine sonderbare Erfahrung, die Erfahrung, daß man ein Verhältnis gewinnen kann zu dem, was da an Vorstellungen auftaucht, daß man lieben und hassen kann, was da auftaucht, daß man Ehrfurcht hegen kann gegenüber dem einen, Hochmut gegenüber dem anderen. Es erwacht nicht nur eine Summe von inneren Vorstellungen, sondern es erwacht etwas wie auf- und abwogende übersinnliche Gefühle und Empfindungen. Man ist ganz mit sich allein, allein mit seiner inneren Welt, welche da auftaucht. Man weiß zunächst selber nichts außer irgendeinem unbestimmten Dunkel, aber man ist voller Beziehung zu diesen Dingen. Nehmen wir ein charakteristisches Beispiel. Etwas, das da als Bild auftaucht, flößt einem Liebe ein. Jetzt ist man in einer starken Versuchung. Eine furchtbare Versuchung tritt auf, denn man liebt jetzt etwas, was in einem selber drinnen ist. Man ist der Versuchung ausgesetzt, die Sache deshalb zu lieben, weil sie einem selbst angehört, und man muß jetzt mit aller Kraft dahin wirken, daß man dieses Wesen nicht liebt, weil man es hat, sondern deshalb, weil es dieses oder jenes ist trotzdem es in einem ist. Selbstlos machen das, was in dem Selbst drinnen ist, das wird Aufgabe. Und das ist eine schwere Aufgabe, eine Aufgabe, mit der sich nichts Seelisches in der gewöhnlichen Sinneswelt vergleichen läßt. Im gewöhnlichen Sinnensein ist es gar nicht möglich, daß ein Mensch ganz selbstlos liebt, was in ihm drinnen ist. Das muß er aber, wenn er dort hinaufkommt. Dadurch, daß man das Wesen überstrahlt mit der Kraft der Liebe, strahlt es selber Kraft aus, und man merkt jetzt dadurch: das will aus einem heraus. Und man merkt weiter: Je mehr man selber Liebe anwenden kann, desto mehr bekommt es selber die Kraft, etwas, was wie eine Hülle in einem ist, zu durchbrechen und hinauszudringen in die Welt. Wenn man es haßt, bekommt es ebenso Kraft; es spannt einen dann, preßt einen und drängt sich durch, wie wenn sich die Lungen oder das Herz durch die Haut des Leibes durchdrängen wollten. Das geht durch alles, womit man sich durch Liebe und Haß in ein Verhältnis bringt. Aber der Unterschied zwischen beiden Erlebnissen ist der: Was man selbstlos liebt, das geht fort, aber man fühlt, es nimmt einen mit, man macht den Weg durch, den es selber durchmacht. Was man haßt oder dem gegenüber man hochmüitig ist, das durchreißt die Hülle und geht fort und läßt einen allein, und man bleibt in der Einsamkeit. Diesen Unterschied merkt man auf einer bestimmten Stufe sehr stark: man wird mitgenommen oder zurückgelassen. Und wenn man mitgenommen wird, so hat man die Möglichkeit, hinzukommen zu dem Wesen, das man in seinem Abbild erlebt hat. Man lernt es kennen. Und dadurch, daß in einem auftauchen die Abbilder von Wesen, die man noch nicht kennt, und man zu ihnen Beziehungen erhält, kommt man aus sich heraus und kommt zu der ganzen Bevölkerung, die man in einer zweiten geistigen Welt kennenlernt. Man lebt sich ein in eine Welt, welche gewöhnlich die devachanische Welt genannt wird, die eigentliche geistige Welt, nicht etwa in die astralische Welt. Denn das ist ein vollständiges Unding, daß der Mensch durch seinen astralischen Leib, den ich beschrieben habe als den Erwecker des elementarischen Leibes, in die astralische Welt käme, sondern man kommt in die eigentliche geistige Welt, in das, was in meiner «Theosophie» das Geisterland genannt wird, und steht lauter geistigen Wesenheiten gegenüber.","text_trust":"verbatim","quote_safe":true,"word_count":558,"url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/de/ga/138/1912-08-28/p021"}],"beads":[{"from":[23],"to":[18],"confidence":"medium"},{"from":[24],"to":[19],"confidence":"medium"},{"from":[25],"to":[20],"confidence":"medium"},{"from":[26],"to":[],"confidence":"medium"},{"from":[27,28,29],"to":[21],"confidence":"medium"}],"note":"Paired by the paragraph aligner; each language numbers its own paragraphs. A bead at either end of the span can carry text beyond it (the `from` numbers show what each bead covers).","unpaired":[26]}}