{"corpus":"steiner","locus":"GA 138/1912-08-29/p026","lang":"en","edition":"English","edition_basis":null,"is_original":false,"is_default_edition":true,"text":"I have said that it is good if a man, on rising to the world to which we are referring, should at first experience memories of a more moral kind rather than his external physical form. Persevering with the exercises for the first steps in initiation, he should gradually become so clairvoyant that there will then appear the memory picture, too, of his physical form. There is something else, however, connected with the arising of this memory picture of one's physical form, and that is that actually from this time on (and it is right) he feels as a memory not only his life of soul in general, not only in general his good and bad deeds and his moral and his foolish ones, but his entire ego. It is his whole self that he feels as a memory in the moment when he can look back on his body as form. He then feels his being as if split in two. He beholds the part he left behind with the Guardian of the Threshold, and he beholds what, in the sense world, he called his ego. Now, on looking back on his ego, he feels that there also is a cleavage, and quite calmly says to himself: “Only now are you able to remember what you formerly called your ego. You now live in a more highly organised ego that bears the same relation to the former ego that you as thinker bear to memories of life in the world of the senses.” At this stage one sees for the first time what man, earthly man, actually is; one looks down on one's ego-man.","text_trust":"verbatim","quote_safe":true,"title":"Lecture V","site_heading":"Experiencing the Spiritual World: Consciousness Beyond the Physical Body","site_heading_note":"A heading the site wrote for this unit from a summary of it; not in the edition, and not the words of Rudolf Steiner or of the translator. 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Mit diesem Auftreten des Erinnerungsbildes der eigenen physischen Gestalt ist aber noch etwas anderes verbunden: daß eigentlich erst von da ab der Mensch - und so ist es gut - nicht nur im allgemeinen sein Seelenleben als Erinnerung fühlt, nicht nur im allgemeinen seine guten und schlechten Taten, seine moralischen und dummen Taten, sondern sein ganzes Ich fühlt. Sein ganzes Selbst fühlt er in dem Moment als Erinnerung, wo er auf seinen Leib als Form zurückschauen kann. Da fühlt er dann sein Wesen wie gespalten. Er schaut auf einen Teil, den er beim Hüter der Schwelle abgelegt hat, und schaut auf das, was er sein Ich nennt in der Sinneswelt. Jetzt ist man, wenn man auf sein Ich zurückblickt, auch in bezug auf sein Ich gespalten und sagt sich mit aller Ruhe: Was du dein Ich früher genannt hast, daran erinnerst du dich jetzt nur; jetzt lebst du in einem übergeordneten Ich, und das verhält sich so zu dem früheren Ich, wie du dich als Denker verhältst in bezug auf die Erinnerungen zum Leben im Sinnensein. Auf das also, was der Mensch eigentlich ist als Erdenmensch, auf seinen Ich-Menschen sieht man erst auf dieser Stufe herunter. Man ist aber da zugleich entrückt in eine noch höhere Welt, die man das höhere Geisterland oder - wenn man will - die höhere Mentalwelt nennen kann, eine etwas von den anderen verschiedene. Da ist man darinnen, wenn man das Ich zwiegespalten fühlt und das gewöhnliche Ich nur noch als Erinnerung fühlt. Da hat man erst die Möglichkeit, in richtiger Weise den Menschen auf der Erde zu beurteilen. Wenn man von dort zurückschaut, fängt man an zu wissen, was der Mensch seiner tiefsten Wesenheit nach ist. Da bekommt man auch die Möglichkeit, ein erlebtes Urteil zu gewinnen über den Verlauf der Geschichte. Da gliedert sich einem die erlebte Menschheitsentwickelung in den Fortgang der Seelen als Ich-Wesen, da ragen heraus aus dem gewöhnlichen Fortgange die Wesen, welche die führenden im Fortgang der Menschheit sind. Da ist es so, wie ich es im zweiten Vortrage charakterisiert habe, daß man wirklich die Impulse erlebt, die fortwährend in die Evolution der Menschheit hineinfließen durch die Initiierten, die überall aus dem Sinnensein in das Geistessein zu gehen haben, damit sie ihre Impulse geben können. Mit dem Punkt, wo man den Menschen als Ich-Wesen erlebt, erlebt man auch erst die wahre Einsicht in das Menschenwesen als solches. 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