{"corpus":"steiner","locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05","ga":"14","lecture":"ga014-2_scene05","lecture_number":null,"title":"The Soul's Probation: Scene 5","site_heading":null,"date":null,"location":null,"lang":"en","edition":"APC1925","edition_basis":null,"is_original":false,"is_default_edition":true,"passage_count":45,"word_count":3164,"translation_credit":null,"witnesses":[{"lang":"de","edition":"original","is_original":true,"is_default_edition":true,"first_passage":1,"last_passage":9,"passage_count":9,"word_count":2633},{"lang":"en","edition":"APC1925","is_original":false,"is_default_edition":true,"first_passage":1,"last_passage":45,"passage_count":45,"word_count":3164,"completeness":{"ratio":1.2,"band":"comparable","note":null}}],"witness_completeness":{"ratio":1.2,"band":"comparable","note":null,"word_count":3164,"original_word_count":2633,"may_be_abridged":false},"passages":[{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p001","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p001","passage_number":1,"word_count":41,"text":"*A mountain glade, in which is situated Felix Balde's solitary cottage. Evening. Dame Felicia Balde, Capesius, then Felix Balde; later on Johannes and his Double; afterwards Lucifer and Ahriman. Dame Felicia is seated on a bench in front of her cottage.*"},{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p002","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p002","passage_number":2,"word_count":41,"text":"*Capesius (arriving, approaches her):*  \nI know an old friend will not ask in vain  \nFor leave to stay and rest awhile with thee  \nSince now, e'en more than any former time,  \nHe needs what in thine house so oft he found."},{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p003","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p003","passage_number":3,"word_count":26,"text":"*Felicia:*  \nWhen thou wast still far off, thy wearied step  \nTold me the tale which now thine eyes repeat;  \nThat sorrow dwelleth in thy soul to-day."},{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p004","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p004","passage_number":4,"word_count":41,"text":"*Capesius (who has seated himself):*  \nEven of onetime 'twas not granted me  \nTo bring much merriment into thy home;  \nBut special patience must I crave to-day  \nWhen, heavy-hearted and of peace bereft,  \nI force my way unto the home of peace."},{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p005","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p005","passage_number":5,"word_count":44,"text":"*Felicia:*  \nWe were right glad to see thee in the days  \nWhen scarce another man came near this house,  \nAnd thou art still our friend, despite events  \nThat came between us, e'en though many now  \nAre glad to seek us in this lonely glade."},{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p006","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p006","passage_number":6,"word_count":25,"text":"*Capesius:*  \nThe tale is true then which hath reached mine ears,  \nThat thy dear Felix, so reserved of yore,  \nIs nowadays a man much visited?"},{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p007","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p007","passage_number":7,"word_count":109,"text":"*Felicia:*  \n'Tis so; good Felix used to shut us off  \nFrom everyone—; but now the people throng  \nTo question him, and he must answer them.  \nHis duty bids him lead this novel life.  \nIn former days he cared not to impart,  \nSave to his inner self, the secret lore  \nConcerning spirit-deeds and nature's powers  \nBy rock and forest unto him revealed.  \nNor did men seem to value it before.  \nHow great a change hath now come o'er the times!  \nTo many men lending a willing ear  \nTo what they counted folly in the past,  \nGreedy for wisdom, Felix can reveal.  \nAnd when my dear good husband has to talk"},{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p008","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p008","passage_number":8,"word_count":7,"text":"*(Felix Balde comes out of the house.)*"},{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p009","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p009","passage_number":9,"word_count":73,"text":"Hour upon hour on end, as oft he doth,  \nI long for those old days of which I spake.  \nHow oft would Felix earnestly declare  \nThat in the quiet heart enshrined, the soul  \nMust learn to treasure up the spirit-gifts  \nFrom worlds divine in mercy sent to her.  \nHe held it treachery to that high speech  \nOf spirit, to reveal it to an ear  \nThat was but open to the world of sense."},{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p010","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p010","passage_number":10,"word_count":37,"text":"*Felix:*  \nFelicia cannot reconcile herself  \nTo this much altered fashion of our life.  \nAs she regrets the loneliness of old,  \nSo she deplores the many days that pass  \nIn which we have but few hours for ourselves."},{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p011","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p011","passage_number":11,"word_count":16,"text":"*Capesius:*  \nWhat made thee strangers welcome to a house  \nThat shut them out so sternly heretofore?"},{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p012","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p012","passage_number":12,"word_count":351,"text":"*Felix:*  \nThe spirit-voice which speaks within my heart  \nBade me of yore be silent; I obeyed.  \nNow that it bids me speak I show myself  \nEqually faithful unto its command.  \nOur human nature undergoes a change  \nAs earth's existence gradually evolves.  \nNow are we very near an epoch's close;  \nAnd spirit-knowledge therefore must in part  \nBe now revealed unto every man  \nWho chooseth to receive it to himself.  \nI know how little what I have to tell  \nIs in agreement with man's current thought;  \nThe spirit-life, they say, must be made known,  \nIn strict and logical thought sequences,  \nAnd men deny all logic to my words.  \nTrue science on a firm foundation based,  \nCannot, they say, regard me otherwise  \nThan as a visionary soul who seeks  \nA solitary road to wisdom's seat,  \nAnd knows no more of science than of art.  \nYet not a few declare it worth their while  \nThe tangle of my language to explore,  \nBecause therein from time to time is found  \nSomething of worth, to reason not opposed.  \nI am a man into whose heart must flow,  \nUntouched by art, each vision he may see.  \nNought know I of a knowledge lacking words.  \nWhen I retreat within mine inmost heart  \nAnd also when I list to nature's voice,  \nThen such a knowledge wakes to life in me  \nAs hath no need to seek for any words;  \nSpeech is to it as intimately linked  \nAs is his body's sheath to man on earth;  \nAnd knowledge such as this, which in this wise  \nReveals itself to us from spirit-worlds,  \nCan be of service even unto those  \nWho understand it not. And so it is  \nThat every man is free to come to me  \nWho will attend to what I have to say.  \nMany are led by curiosity  \nAnd other trivial reasons to my door.  \nI know that this is so, but also know  \nThat though the souls of just such men as these  \nAre not this moment living for the light,  \nYet in them have been planted seeds of good  \nWhich will not fail to ripen in due time."},{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p013","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p013","passage_number":13,"word_count":34,"text":"*Capesius:*  \nLet me, I pray thee, freely speak my mind.  \nI have admired thee now these many years;  \nYet up till now I have not grasped the sense  \nWhich underlies thy strange mysterious words."},{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p014","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p014","passage_number":14,"word_count":160,"text":"*Felix:*  \nIt surely will unfold itself to thee;  \nFor with a lofty spirit dost thou strive—  \nAnd noble heart, and so the time must come  \nWhen thou thyself shalt hear the voice of truth.  \nThou dost not mark how full of rich content  \nMan, as the image of the cosmos, is:  \nHis head doth mirror heaven's very self:  \nThe spirits of the spheres work through his limbs  \nAnd in his breast earth-beings hold their sway.  \nTo all of these opposed, in all their might  \nAppear the demons, natives of the Moon,  \nWhose lot it is to cross those beings' aims.  \nThe human form as it before us stands,  \nThe soul through which we live and feel and strive,  \nThe spirit that illuminates our path:  \nAll these, full many gods have worked to mould  \nThroughout the ages of eternity;  \nAnd this their purpose was: to join in one,  \nForces proceeding out of all the worlds  \nWhich should, in combination, make mankind."},{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p015","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p015","passage_number":15,"word_count":21,"text":"*Capesius:*  \nThy words come near to causing me alarm,  \nFor they regard mankind as nothing else  \nThan products of divine activities."},{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p016","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p016","passage_number":16,"word_count":31,"text":"*Felix:*  \nAnd so a man who sets himself to learn  \nTrue spirit science must be meek indeed.  \nWhoso, in vanity, self knowledge seeks,  \nFor him the gates of wisdom open not."},{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p017","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p017","passage_number":17,"word_count":41,"text":"*Capesius:*  \nOnce more, no doubt, will Dame Felicia  \nCome to mine aid, as she so oft hath done,  \nAnd make a picture for my seeking soul,  \nWhich, being warmed thereat, may rightly grasp  \nThe real true meaning in thy words contained."},{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p018","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p018","passage_number":18,"word_count":40,"text":"*Felicia:*  \nDear Felix oft hath told me in the past  \nThe very words which now he spake to thee.  \nThey freed a vision in mine heart, which I  \nDid promise, then and there, I must relate  \nSome day to thee."},{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p019","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p019","passage_number":19,"word_count":19,"text":"*Capesius:*  \nOh do so, dearest dame;  \nI sorely crave refreshment, such as thou,  \nOut of thy picture-storehouse canst provide."},{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p020","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p020","passage_number":20,"word_count":842,"text":"*Felicia:*  \nSo be it then. There once did live a boy,  \nThe only child of needy forest-folk,  \nWho grew up in the woodland solitudes;  \nFew souls he knew beside his parents twain.  \nHis build was slender, and his skin wellnigh  \nTransparent; marvels of the spirit hid  \nDeep in his eye; long could one gaze therein.  \nAnd though few human beings ever came  \nInto the circle of his daily life,  \nThe lad was well befriended none the less.  \nWhen golden sunshine bathed the neighbouring hills,  \nWith thoughtful eyes he drew the spirit-gold  \nInto his soul, until his heart became  \nKin to the morning glory of the sun.  \nBut when the morning sunshine could not break  \nThrough dense dark banks of cloud, and heaviness  \nLay on the hills around, his eye grew sad,  \nAnd sorrow took possession of his heart.  \nThus his attention only centred on  \nThe spirit-fabric of his narrow world,  \nA world that seemed as much a part of him  \nAs did his limbs and body. Woodlands all  \nAnd trees and flowers he felt to be his friends;  \nFrom crown and calyx and from tops of trees,  \nThe spirit beings spake full oft to him,  \nAnd all their whisperings were lucid speech.  \nMarvels and wonders of the hidden worlds  \nDisclosed themselves unto the boy when he  \nHeld converse in his soul with many things  \nBy men deemed lifeless. Evening often fell,  \nAnd still the boy would be away from home,  \nAnd cause his loving parents much concern.  \nAt such times he was at a place near by  \nIn which a spring rose gushing from the rocks,  \nTo fall in misty spray upon the stones.  \nWhen silver moonbeams would reflect themselves,  \nA miracle of colour and of light,  \nFull in the rush of hasting waterdrops,  \nThe boy could spend beside the rock-born spring  \nHour after hour, till spirit-shapes appeared  \nBefore the vision of the youthful seer  \nWhere moonbeams shivered on the falling drops.  \nThey grew to be three forms in woman's shape,  \nWho spoke to him about those things in which  \nHis yearning soul made known its interest.  \nAnd when upon a gentle summer night  \nThe lad was once more sitting by the spring,  \nA myriad particles one woman took  \nFrom out the coloured web of waterdrops  \nAnd to the second woman handed them.  \nShe fashioned from the watery particles  \nA gleaming chalice with a silver sheen  \nAnd handed it in turn unto the third.  \nShe filled the vessel with the silver rays  \nOf moonlight and then gave it to the boy,  \nWho had beheld all this with inner sight.  \nDuring the night which followed this event  \nHe dreamed a dream in which he saw himself  \nRobbed of this chalice by some dragon wild.  \nAfter this night had passed, the boy beheld  \nBut three times more the marvel of the stream.  \nThen the three women stayed away from him  \nAlthough he sat and mused beside the spring  \nThat gushed beneath the moonlight from the rock.  \nAnd when three times three hundred sixty weeks  \nHad passed, the boy had long become a man,  \nAnd left home, parents, and his woodland nook  \nTo live in some strange city. There one eve  \nHe sat and thought, tired with the day's hard toil,  \nMusing on what life held in store for him,  \nWhen suddenly he felt himself caught up  \nAnd set again beside that rock-bound spring;  \nThe women three, he there beheld once more,  \nAnd this time clearly he could hear them speak.  \nThese were the words the first one spake to him:  \n‘Think of me always whensoe'er thou art  \nO'ercome by loneliness, for I am she  \nWho lures the inner vision of mankind  \nTo starry realms and heavenly distances.  \nAnd whosoever wills to feel my sway  \nTo him I give a draught of life and hope  \nOut of the magic goblet which I hold.’  \nThe second also spake these words to him:  \n‘Forget me not at times when thou art nigh  \nTo losing courage on life's battlefield.  \nI lead men's yearning hearts to depths of soul  \nAnd also up to lofty spirit-heights.  \nAnd whosoever seeks his powers from me,  \nFor him I forge unwavering faith in life  \nShaped by the magic hammer which I wield.’  \nThe third one gave her message in these words  \n‘Lift up thy spirit's eye to gaze on me  \nWhen by life's riddles thou art overwhelmed.  \n'Tis I who spin the threads of thought that lead  \nThrough labyrinths of life and depths of soul.  \nAnd whosoever puts his trust in me  \nFor him I weave the rays of living love  \nUpon this magic loom at which I sit.’  \nThus it befell the man, and in the night  \nThat followed on his visions he did dream,  \nHow that a dragon wild in circles crept  \nRound him, but was not able to draw near.  \nHe was protected from that dragon's claws  \nBy those same beings whom he saw of old  \nSeated beside the spring among the rocks,  \nWho had gone with him, when he left his home,  \nTo guard him in his strange environment."},{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p021","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p021","passage_number":21,"word_count":17,"text":"*Capesius:*  \nAccept my thanks, dear dame, before I go,  \nFor this rich treasure thou hast given me."},{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p022","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p022","passage_number":22,"word_count":12,"text":"*(Stands up to depart; Felix and Dame Felicia go into the house.)"},{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p023","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p023","passage_number":23,"word_count":5,"text":"(alone and at some distance)*"},{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p024","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p024","passage_number":24,"word_count":88,"text":"I feel the health that such a picture brings  \nInto my soul, and how to all my thoughts  \nIt can restore the forces they had lost.  \nSimple the tale unfolded by the dame,  \nAnd yet it rouseth powers of thought in me  \nThat carry me away to worlds unknown....  \nTherefore will I in this fair solitude  \nMyself to dreams abandon, which so oft  \nHave sought to usher thoughts into my soul,  \nThoughts which have proved themselves of higher worth  \nThan many a fruit of weeks of close research."},{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p025","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p025","passage_number":25,"word_count":12,"text":"*(He disappears behind some thick bushes. Enter Johannes, sunk in deep thought.)*"},{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p026","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p026","passage_number":26,"word_count":194,"text":"*Johannes to himself:*  \nWas this some dream, or was it truth indeed?  \nI cannot bear the words my friend just spake  \nIn calm serenity and yet so firm  \nAbout our separation which must come.  \nWould I might think it was but worldly sense,  \nThat sets itself against the spirit's trend,  \nAnd, like a mirage, stands between us twain.—  \nI cannot, and I will not let the words  \nOf warning which Maria spake to me  \nThus quench the sounding voice of mine own soul  \nWhich says ‘I love her,’ says it night and day.  \nOut of the fountain of my love alone  \nSprings that activity for which I crave.  \nWhat value hath my impulse to create  \nOr yet my outlook on high spirit-aims  \nIf they would rob me of that very light  \nWhich can alone irradiate myself?  \nIn this illumination must I live,  \nAnd if it is to be withdrawn from me  \nThen shall my choice be death for evermore.  \nI feel my forces fail me at this hour  \nAs soon as I would set myself to think  \nThat I must wander o'er a path whereon  \nHer light doth shed no more its radiant beam."},{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p027","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p027","passage_number":27,"word_count":43,"text":"A mist begins to form before mine eyes  \nWhich shrouds the marvels o'er, which used to make  \nThese woods, these cliffs a glory to mine eyes  \nA fearful dream mounts from abysmal depths  \nWhich shakes me through and through with fear and dread—"},{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p028","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p028","passage_number":28,"word_count":34,"text":"O get thee gone from me;—I yearn to be  \nAlone to dream my dreams;  \nIn them at least I still can fight and strive  \nTo win back that which now seems lost to me."},{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p029","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p029","passage_number":29,"word_count":9,"text":"He will not go;—then will I fly from him."},{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p030","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p030","passage_number":30,"word_count":11,"text":"( *He feels as if he were rooted to the ground.*)"},{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p031","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p031","passage_number":31,"word_count":17,"text":"What are the bonds that hold me prisoner  \nAnd chain me, as with fetters, to this place?"},{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p032","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p032","passage_number":32,"word_count":6,"text":"*(The Double of Johannes Thomasius appears.)*"},{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p033","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p033","passage_number":33,"word_count":53,"text":"Ah!—whosoe'er thou art; if human blood  \nDoth course within thy veins, or if thou art  \nSome spirit only—leave me and depart.  \nWho is it?—Here some demon brings to me,  \nMy own self's likeness,—he will not depart;—  \nIt is the picture of my very self  \nAnd seems to be more powerful than that self.—"},{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p034","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p034","passage_number":34,"word_count":49,"text":"*Double (as if to Maria):*  \nMaria, I do love thee;—beating heart  \nAnd fevered blood are mine when at thy side.  \nAnd when thine eye meets mine, my pulse doth thrill  \nWith passion's tremor: when thy dearest hand  \nDoth nestle in mine own, my body swoons  \nWith rapture and delight."},{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p035","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p035","passage_number":35,"word_count":57,"text":"*Johannes:*  \nThou phantom ghost,  \nOf mist and fog compact, how dost thou dare  \nTo utter blasphemy and so malign  \nThe purest feelings of my heart. How great  \nA load of guilt must I have laid on me,  \nThat I must be compelled to look upon  \nSuch lust—befouled distortion of that love  \nThat is to me so holy."},{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p036","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p036","passage_number":36,"word_count":66,"text":"*Double (as if to Maria):*  \nI have lent  \nFull oft unto thy words a listening ear.  \nI seemed to draw them up into my soul  \nAs 'twere some message from the spirit-world.  \nBut more than any scene thy words disclosed  \nI loved to have thy body close to mine.  \nAnd when thou spakst of soul-paths I was filled  \nWith rapture that went leaping through my veins."},{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p037","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p037","passage_number":37,"word_count":5,"text":"*(The voice of conscience speaks.)*"},{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p038","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p038","passage_number":38,"word_count":22,"text":"*Conscience:*  \nThis is the unconfessed  \nBut not yet dispossessed  \nApparently repressed  \nStill by the blood possessed—  \nThe secret fire  \nOf passionate desire."},{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p039","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p039","passage_number":39,"word_count":72,"text":"*Double (with a slightly different voice):*  \nI have no power to go away from thee;  \nOft wilt thou find me standing by thy side;  \nI leave thee not till thou hast found the power  \nWhich makes of me the very counterpart  \nOf that pure being which thou shalt become.  \nAs yet thou hast not reached that high estate,  \nWhich still deluded by thy personal self  \nThou thinkest falsely that thou hast attained."},{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p040","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p040","passage_number":40,"word_count":4,"text":"*(Enter Lucifer and Ahriman.)*"},{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p041","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p041","passage_number":41,"word_count":58,"text":"*Lucifer:*  \nO man, o'ercome thyself.  \nO man, deliver me.  \nThou hast defeated me  \nIn thy soul's highest realm..,  \nBut I am bound to thee  \nIn thine own being's depth.  \nMe shalt thou ever find  \nAcross thy path in life  \nIf thou wouldst strive to shield  \nAll of thyself from me.  \nO man, o'ercome thyself,  \nO man, deliver me."},{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p042","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p042","passage_number":42,"word_count":61,"text":"*Ahriman:*  \nO man, be bold and dare.  \nO man, experience me.  \nThou hast availed to win  \nTo spirit seership here,  \nBut I must spoil for thee  \nThe longing of thy heart.  \nStill must thou suffer oft  \nDeep agony of soul,  \nIf thou wilt not remain  \nIn all humility  \nWithin my bounds.  \nO man, be bold and dare.  \nO man, experience me."},{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p043","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p043","passage_number":43,"word_count":44,"text":"*(Lucifer and Ahriman vanish; the Double also. Johannes walks, deep in thought, into the dark recesses, of the forest. Capesius appears again. He has, from his post behind the bushes, watched the scene between Johannes and the Double as if it were a vision.)*"},{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p044","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p044","passage_number":44,"word_count":221,"text":"*Capesius:*  \nWhat have I seen and heard! It lay on me  \nJust like some nightmare. Came Thomasius  \nWalking like one who is absorbed in thought;  \nThen he stood still; it seemed as if he talked  \nWith someone, and yet no one else was there.  \nI felt o'ercome as by some deadly fear;  \nAnd saw no more of what went on around.  \nAs if I were asleep, and unaware,  \nI must have sunk into yon picture-world  \nWhich I can now so clearly call to mind.  \nIt can indeed have been but little time  \nI sat and dreamed, unconscious of myself;  \nAnd yet, how rich was yonder world of dreams,  \nWhat strange impressions doth it make on me.  \nPersons were there who lived in bygone days;  \nI plainly saw them move and heard them speak.  \nI dreamed about a spirit-brotherhood  \nWhich strove with steadfast purpose to attain  \nUnto the heights which crown humanity.  \nAmong them I could clearly see myself  \nAnd all that happened was familiar too.  \nA dream.—... yet most unnerving was that dream.  \nI know that in this life I certainly  \nCan ne'er have learned to know the like of it.  \nAnd each impression that it leaves behind  \nReacts like very life upon my soul.  \nThose pictures draw me with resistless power.—  \nO if I could but dream that dream again."},{"locus":"GA 14/ga014-2_scene05/p045","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/14/ga014-2_scene05/p045","passage_number":45,"word_count":5,"text":"*Curtain, whilst Capesius remains standing*"}]}