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In feeling at some point in our life the powerlessness to lift ourselves to the Divine, we become aware of that sickness of which I have spoken, the sickness that has been implanted into us. And in becoming aware of this sickness, we feel that as the body is today, our soul would be condemned to die with it.","text_trust":"verbatim","quote_safe":true,"word_count":203,"url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/182/1918-10-16/p071","german_anchor":{"de_prefix":"1918-10-16","de_passages":[{"locus":"GA 182/1918-10-16/p047","url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/de/ga/182/1918-10-16/p047"}],"bead_confidence":"high","pairing_state":"proposed","verified":false,"length_check":{"de_words":363,"en_words":356,"ratio":0.98,"partial":false},"correspondence":"established","note":"English passage numbering is edition-relative, so the same number need not name the same paragraph in the German. 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Und wenn sie ihn erleben, dann finden sie die Antwort auf die Frage: Wie finde ich den Christus?","text_trust":"verbatim","quote_safe":true,"word_count":42,"url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/de/ga/182/1918-10-16/p046"},{"locus":"GA 182/1918-10-16/p047","passage_number":47,"text":"Dazu ist folgendes Erleben notwendig. Man findet den Christus, wenn man folgende Erlebnisse hat. Erstens das Erlebnis, daß man sich sagt: Ich will so weit Selbsterkenntnis anstreben, als es mir möglich ist, nach meiner ganz individuellen menschlichen Persönlichkeit möglich ist. - Keiner, der ehrlich diese Selbsterkenntnis anstrebt, wird sich anderes heute als Mensch sagen können als: Ich kann das nicht fassen, was ich eigentlich anstrebe. Ich bleibe mit meiner Fassungskraft hinter dem, was ich anstrebe, zurück; ich empfinde meine Ohnmacht gegenüber meinem Streben. - Es ist dieses Erleben ein sehr wichtiges. Dieses Erleben müßte jeder haben, der ehrlich mit sich selbst, in Selbsterkenntnis zu Rate geht: ein gewisses Ohnmachtsgefühl. Dieses Ohnmachtsgefühl ist gesund, denn dieses Ohnmachtsgefühl ist nichts anderes, als das Empfinden der Krankheit, und man ist ja erst recht krank, wenn man eine Krankheit hat und sie nicht fühlt. Indem man die Ohnmacht empfindet, sich zum Göttlichen zu erheben in irgendeinem Zeitpunkte seines Lebens, fühlt man in sich jene Krankheit, von der ich gesprochen habe, die uns eingepflanzt ist. Und indem man diese Krankheit empfindet, empfindet man, daß die Seele durch unseren Leib eigentlich, so wie der Leib heute ist, verurteilt wäre mitzusterben. Dann, wenn man genügend kräftig diese Ohnmacht empfindet, dann kommt der Umschlag. Dann kommt das andere Erlebnis, das uns sagt: Aber wir können, wenn wir uns nicht an dasjenige hingeben, was zu erreichen wir durch unsere Leibeskräfte allein imstande sind, wir können, wenn wir uns hingeben an dasjenige, was uns der Geist gibt, überwinden diesen innerlichen Seelentod. Wir können die Möglichkeit haben, unsere Seele wiederzufinden und an den Geist anzuknüpfen. Wir können erleben die Nichtigkeit des Daseins auf der einen Seite und die Verherrlichung des Daseins aus uns selber, wenn wir hinüberkommen über das Spüren der Ohnmacht. Wir können die Krankheit spüren in unserer Ohnmacht, wir können [aber auch] den Heiland, die heilende Kraft spüren, wenn wir die Ohnmacht [erlebt haben], dem Tode verwandt geworden sind in unserer Seele. 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