{"corpus":"steiner","locus":"GA 275/1914-12-30/p018","lang":"en","edition":"English","edition_basis":null,"is_original":false,"is_default_edition":true,"text":"The path to initiation has two sides. The one side leads man to discover the secrets, the riddles of life so that he can enter into the spiritual experience of existence. The other side may be called the more subjective side of initiation that takes place more within the soul itself. It is, at the same time, the side from which men shrink the most, because it presents in fact something which does not fit in with the comfortable indolence of experience to which the soul so easily yields or wants to yield. An extremely wide and detailed range of inner experiences awaits the one who is to be gradually led by his inner experience to initiation. Conquest and liberation, hindrance and redemption alternate in manifold ways with inner experience on the way to initiation. One goes through everything the soul experiences when it suddenly feels it has become an entire stranger to itself; as though it had been cast into an abyss where it cannot help feeling that it is eternally lost and can never recover anything which it may have acquired during any lifetime. It may feel an unlimited dismay and grief at the loss of the existence already won. Then the soul may feel itself forced into complete fragmentation, as though it must disintegrate into an endless multiplicity and dissolve into all the beings out of which the cosmos is composed. Further the soul may feel itself wandering through the beings of the cosmos, becoming akin to one of them, then leaving it again and becoming akin to another, in the way I have described it in my book *The Threshold of the Spiritual World*, in the part dealing with experiences that are always attended by painful privations, painful loneliness as they are passed through one by one. Then comes the experience of the most radical transformation of all, when the soul must decide to undergo what can be expressed with the words: Now you must lose yourself for a while, you must thrust yourself away from yourself; but you must have faith that while you are losing yourself, while you are thrusting yourself away from yourself, beings reposing in the wide expanses of the divine hierarchies will protect you, will cause you to find yourself again after you have lost yourself. This is the passage through births and deaths. This is to be undergone among the inner experiences which lead to initiation.","text_trust":"verbatim","quote_safe":true,"title":"III. Impulses of Transformation for Man's Artistic Evolution II","site_heading":null,"date":"1914-12-30","location":null,"word_count":406,"url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/275/1914-12-30/p018","alignment_confidence":"medium","alignment_reason":"beads:length","two_voice_volume":false,"translation_credit":{"scope":"unit","status":"established","translator":"Pauline Wehrle and Johanna Collis","identified_edition":"RSP1984","book_title":"Art as Seen in the Light of Mystery Wisdom","publisher":"Rudolf Steiner Press","publisher_inferred":true,"match_score":1.0,"source_url":"https://www.rsarchive.org/Lectures/GA275/English/RSP1984/19141230p01.html","evidence":"lecture_list_row","publisher_note":"The publisher is inferred from the edition code in this lecture's source URL, not stated by the source page. 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Die eine Seite ist diese, daß der Mensch die Geheimnisse, die Rätsel des Daseins durch die Initiation kennenlernt, daß er durch sie eintritt in das geistige Erleben des Daseins. Die andere Seite ist aber dasjenige, was wir nennen können das mehr Subjektive, das mehr in der Seele sich Abspielende der Initiation. Es ist zugleich das, vor dem die Menschen am meisten zurückschrecken, weil es in der Tat etwas darstellt, was nicht zu den Bequemlichkeiten des seelischen Erlebens gehött, denen sich die Seele so leicht hingibt oder hingeben will. Es gibt eine Skala, eine ungeheuer ausführliche Skala inneren Erlebens für denjenigen, den sein inneres Erleben allmählich zur Initiation führen soll. Die Überwindungen, Befreiungen, die Widerstände und Erlösungen, sie wechseln ab in mannigfaltigster Weise in dem inneren Erleben auf dem Wege zur Initiation: Da hat man durchzumachen all dasjenige, was uns die Seele so erfühlen läßt, wie wenn sich diese Seele plötzlich ganz fremd geworden wäre, wie wenn sie in einen Abgrund gestürzt wäre, wo sie fühlen muß von sich, wie wenn sie ewig verloren wäre und nimmer wiederfinden könnte das, was sie schon in irgendeiner Lebenszeit einmal erworben hat. Wie eine unendliche Bestürzung und Trauer gegenüber dem Verlieren des schon gewonnenen Daseins kann es über die Seele kommen. Und dann wiederum kann es auch so über die Seele kommen, wie wenn diese Seele sich zersplittern müßte, aufgehen müßte in eine unendliche Vielheit, in alle die Wesen, aus denen der Kosmos zusammengesetzt ist. Dann aber ist es wieder die Stimmung, wie wenn sie sich fühlen muß hindurchwandeln durch die Wesen des Alls, verwandt werden mit dem Wesen des einen, wiederum verlassen dieses Wesen und verwandt werden mit dem Wesen des andern, wie ich das geschildert habe in meinem Buche «Die Schwelle der geistigen Welt», wo ich dargestellt habe die Erlebnisse, die immer verbunden sind mit schmerzlichen Entbehrungen, mit schmerzlichen Verlassenheiten, wenn sie im einzelnen durchgemacht werden. Endlich dasjenige, was die Seele erleben kann, wenn sie die radikalste Verwandlung, möchte ich sagen, miterlebt, wo die Seele sich entschließen muß zu dem, was ausgedrückt werden kann mit den Worten: Du mußt jetzt eine Weile dich selber verlieren, dich selber von dir stoßen, aber du mußt das Vertrauen haben, daß, während du dich selber verlierst, während du dich von dir stößest, Wesen, die in den Weiten der göttlichen Hierarchien ruhen, dich bewahren und wieder dich selbst finden lassen, nachdem du dich verloren hast. — Dies ist das Durchgehen durch Geburten und Tode. Das ist es, was durchzumachen ist unter den inneren Erlebnissen, die zur Initiation führen.","text_trust":"verbatim","quote_safe":true,"word_count":431,"url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/de/ga/275/1914-12-30/p015"}],"english":["GA 275/1914-12-30/p018"],"method":"length","confidence":"medium","correspondence":"established","length_check":{"de_words":431,"en_words":406,"ratio":0.94,"partial":false},"pairing_state":"proposed","verified":false},"witness_completeness":{"ratio":1.05,"band":"comparable","note":null,"word_count":5823,"original_word_count":5545,"may_be_abridged":false},"witness_quality":{"translator":{"scope":"unit","status":"recorded","translator":"Pauline Wehrle and Johanna Collis","identified_edition":"RSP1984","book_title":"Art as Seen in the Light of Mystery Wisdom","publisher":"Rudolf Steiner Press","publisher_inferred":true,"match_score":1.0,"source_url":"https://www.rsarchive.org/Lectures/GA275/English/RSP1984/19141230p01.html","evidence":"lecture_list_row","publisher_note":"The publisher is inferred from the edition code in this lecture's source URL, not stated by the source page. 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