Preliminary drafts: Scenes not included in the drama

MARY: It was, John, the hardest journey of my life, Which now led me to you. I needed the help of all good beings, To whom Benedictus' wisdom had ever connected me, To overcome all resistance, That stood in my way. What I ever felt as weakness, What I could desire in the course of my life, It broke away from my being And became its own entity. So I stood before thousands of souls, Whom I had to fight. They did not fight as enemies, They lured as seducers; They promised bliss, And when I turned away from them, They darkened the light of my thoughts, So that my memory would fade Of everything that had become mine from the sources of wisdom, To extricate myself Had become mine, to extricate myself From the enemies' own essence. They could not wrest from me My guide's noble gifts. So I always found myself In the best part of my being And was able to find your soul. In that part of my being I had to grasp it, Which can indeed be lost, But in loss Is consecrated to eternal death. I had to save it for you. You could have ignited that spark, Which sleeps in every human being, In the terrible realm of chaos, But you would have You would have withdrawn it forever from the world, For which you received it. As soon as you find yourself here again, It is impossible for you to think That you detach yourself from your origin And consecrate yourself to the construction of other worlds.