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When I was deeply immersed  \nIn my work, it often manifested itself  \nAs wild haste, but when  \nMy soul, weary, had to seek rest,  \nThen I could discover that the old bonds of blood  \nAs the deepest love for Theodora  \nHad taken root in my soul.  \nAs long as the work kept me busy,  \nI was numb and could believe  \nThat the longing was meaningless.  \nBut now that I have completed my work,  \nIt is clear to me that this inclination  \nTo see through its essence, fear prevents me.  \nI had to see how, through the bonds of fate,  \nThe woman I long for  \nIs united with the man who, through her,  \nWas able to find his path in life.  \nMay I doubt that future lives  \nWill preserve such a strong bond.  \nIn accordance with my own teaching  \nI should look at the situation with a confident gaze;  \nBut I tremble in cowardly fear  \nWhen I have to fathom the consequences of my inclination.","text_trust":"verbatim","quote_safe":true,"title":"Related drafts for the first, second, and third scenes","site_heading":null,"date":null,"location":null,"word_count":259,"url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/44/05_02/p044","alignment_confidence":"high","alignment_reason":"beads:length","two_voice_volume":false,"translation_credit":{"scope":"unit","status":"established","translator":"Steiner Online Library","identified_edition":null,"book_title":null,"publisher":null,"publisher_inferred":false,"match_score":1.0,"source_url":"https://www.rsarchive.org/Articles/GA044/English/Dweller_05.html","evidence":"lecture_page_line"},"edition_coverage":{"de":["original"],"en":["English"]},"available_versions":[{"lang":"de","edition":"original","edition_basis":null,"is_original":true,"is_default_edition":true,"url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/de/ga/44/05_02/p044"},{"lang":"en","edition":"English","edition_basis":null,"is_original":false,"is_default_edition":true,"url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/44/05_02/p044","paragraph_aligned":true}],"unit_kind":{"kind":"second_piece_same_name","base_unit":"GA 44/05","note":"Another piece with the same name as 05 in this volume; the suffix only separates the two."},"authorship":{"kind":"dramatis_persona","is_steiner":true,"speaker":"THOMASIUS","author":"Rudolf Steiner","note":"A line from the drafts and fragments of Rudolf Steiner's Mystery Dramas. 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