{"corpus":"steiner","locus":"GA 64/1915-01-15/p022","lang":"en","edition":"English","edition_basis":null,"is_original":false,"is_default_edition":true,"text":"Because this is so, I have often mentioned here in these lectures an experience that the spiritual researcher can undergo. After all, happiness and joy always — or at least mostly — come to our soul from outside. They are like something that comes from outside. When we become absorbed in our pain and suffering, we withdraw into ourselves. We would like to grasp happiness, we would like to flee pain; but we could only escape it by clenching ourselves up into ourselves. Now one could ask the one who has gathered some spiritual knowledge in his soul: What would you rather do without in your life: what you have experienced in terms of happiness and joy – or what you have experienced in terms of pain and suffering, even in terms of failures themselves? And the spirit-discerner will answer: I am grateful, very grateful to the spiritual worlds for sending me my happiness and joy; but if I have to choose what I would rather do without in my life – happiness or pain, I would rather do without happiness; because I can thank my luck for a lot, but the light I have gained about the world I owe to my lived-through failures; and what I have become with my knowledge, I have become through my experienced pains, and in the true sense of the word I must say: I have found myself through my pains, harmoniously ordered to the world through my pain experiences!","text_trust":"verbatim","quote_safe":true,"title":"6. Intuitive Insight in the Happy and Serious Hours of Life","site_heading":null,"date":"1915-01-15","location":null,"word_count":247,"url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/en/ga/64/1915-01-15/p022","alignment_confidence":"medium","alignment_reason":"beads:identity","two_voice_volume":false,"translation_credit":{"scope":"unit","status":"established","translator":"Steiner Online Library","identified_edition":"SOL2024","book_title":"From a Fateful Time","publisher":"Steiner Online Library","publisher_inferred":true,"match_score":1.0,"source_url":"https://www.rsarchive.org/Lectures/GA064/English/SOL2024/19150115p01.html","evidence":"lecture_page_line","publisher_note":"The publisher is inferred from the edition code in this lecture's source URL, not stated by the source page. 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Nun könnte man denjenigen, der einige Geist-Erkenntnis in seiner Seele aufgesammelt hat, fragen: Was möchtest du in deinem Leben lieber missen: was du an Glück und Freude erlebt hast — oder was du an Schmerz und Leid, ja an Mißerfolgen selbst erfahren hast? Und der Geist-Erkennende wird darauf zur Antwort geben: Dankbar, herzlich dankbar bin ich den geistigen Welten, daß sie mir mein Glück und meine Freude gesendet haben; soll ich aber wählen, was ich lieber in meinem Leben missen würde — Glück oder Schmerz, so würde ich lieber das Glück missen; denn ich kann dem Glück zwar viel verdanken, was mir aber an Licht über die Welt geworden ist, das verdanke ich meinen durchlebten Mißerfolgen; und was ich mit meiner Erkenntnis geworden bin, das bin ich durch meine erlebten Schmerzen geworden, und im wahren Sinne des Wortes muß ich sagen: Gefunden habe ich mich durch meine Schmerzen, harmonisch hingeordnet zur Welt habe ich mich durch meine Schmerzerlebnisse!","text_trust":"verbatim","quote_safe":true,"word_count":249,"url":"https://anthroposophy.ai/v1/steiner/de/ga/64/1915-01-15/p022"}],"english":["GA 64/1915-01-15/p022"],"method":"identity","confidence":"medium","correspondence":"established","length_check":{"de_words":249,"en_words":247,"ratio":0.99,"partial":false},"pairing_state":"verified","verified":true,"evidence":["length","meaning","audit"]},"witness_completeness":{"ratio":1.06,"band":"comparable","note":null,"word_count":9274,"original_word_count":8779,"may_be_abridged":false},"witness_quality":{"translator":{"scope":"unit","status":"recorded","translator":"Steiner Online Library","identified_edition":"SOL2024","book_title":"From a Fateful Time","publisher":"Steiner Online Library","publisher_inferred":true,"match_score":1.0,"source_url":"https://www.rsarchive.org/Lectures/GA064/English/SOL2024/19150115p01.html","evidence":"lecture_page_line","publisher_note":"The publisher is inferred from the edition code in this lecture's source URL, not stated by the source page. 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