Fragmentary drafts for the first, second, fifth, seventh, eighth, and tenth images

THOMASIUS: In this realm, I encountered a true connoisseur of the laws of the world. What this connoisseur means to the world's judgment cannot be decided, but only he who has come to know him in his true essence can judge him. And he let me see that it would be most fortunate if my work had never been presented to the world. Everything that is in it, and everything that is now applauded by the world, cannot determine its value. For everything that science and thought can judge in such a work can prove to be both good and bad in its effect. And so a creation that is considered by reason to be the best can prove to be truly harmful when its effect unfolds in the course of the world. Ahriman showed me that no one should believe that a creation he has accomplished can ever be separated from him. It remains connected to him. And so it may appear as if I have accomplished something that is good and can now continue to have a good effect. But when this apparently happens in the earthly realm, I will have to work into my work from the spiritual realm, and lead people all the more surely into error because they can believe that they are following what is good. And this will have to happen because Ahriman, through the power he has over me, can guide me in such a way that the effects of my deeds in the future must fall to him. And so, through a work that seduces people with the appearance of truth, I will lead them all the more surely to evil. While I was at work, rushing from conclusion to conclusion in rapture and ecstasy, all the impulses that had long been latent in my soul were able to unfold fully. For since my mind was focused only on my thinking, everything that wildly strove for existence in my heart proliferated unguarded through my self. I believed myself to be in the highest realm of the spirit, and I was in the deepest instincts of the soul. Before I began my work, I had surrendered myself to Lucifer. He played with my thoughts with the most beautiful images, which, however, sprang only from the instinct to satisfy the pleasure of thinking. But while I was aware of this, he planted in the depths of my being the wild urges to which I am now addicted. Karma still allows me to speak about all this as I do. But times will come when these urges will darken my spirit, and I will inevitably succumb to them. And then I will greedily seize everything that follows from my work in the becoming of the world and turn it to the ruin of humanity. For I will have to love Ahriman, and it will have to fill me with joy when I can deliver the world into his hands through my deeds.